The Great Revival

Hey, as I promised before, I'm back here!

I'm sorry that I had quietly walked away from the blog and left a moment of silence. I had chaos of thoughts and went through some crazy times. Well, it took me courage to stand back and embrace this life. I have learnt that I should have live life abundantly. When life storms hit you, don't be weary, but stand up and face the challenge. Life is good anyway. Don't worry. I'm still very much ALIVE and living well. I hope everyone is living well too.

Could you imagine that I have about 50 drafts left in my blog post? I had a good laugh while reading these drafts. I decided to post some of them up here to share tits and bits of my life.This were written long ago so please keep reading if you really have that free time because it's gonna be a long post =)

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Welcome Back!

Hello world! It's February 2012 already. I'm back after vanishing into a black hole since August 2010. If you have noticed, I didn't update my blog for about one and half year already. Sorry guys, I learned a lot during these period of time. Please bear with me. I lost the confidence and courage in everything. I blamed myself and hatred myself as an useless person. Thank you Jesus. He is the one that heals my soul. I find comfort in Him when nothing else helps. I feel His power. I am not afraid because He is with me. Now all I know...it seems I'm more understand without Christ, I am nothing. I do not think of ending up my life because of certain issues I faced . By His mercy and grace, I'm able to break out from fallen position, rise up and walk again. It's not how you see yourself. Focus my eyes upon Jesus. He draws me closer to Him. The purpose I revive this blog again is to share my life experience with people around the world or may be other living organism at the outer space as well? I accept myself and knowing I am the creation of my beautiful Father. In the days to come, I shall live out my special calling. I do not know how God is going to direct my life's script, but I trust in Him that He will make a way for me. I would like to thank my family for always supporting me on this journey of life. Also, thanks to my old friends and new friends who accompanying me so far. I enjoy to have all my high school peeps who made my worth remembering for life. I'm so thankful to have such a great bunch of friends. You guys rocks! So for now, this blog will be back to normal with frequent updates. A little updates. I have been all good lately; just finished my finals and currently on my semester break. I do appreciate the things that happened lately. I enjoy every single hang out we had.

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Bonjour! I'M BACK!!!!! First, I would like to thank you for supporting me. Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.


I'm going through a magical moment. My heart skipped don't know how many beats. This is a strange enough new play on words. I found out something that is valuable to me has lost. Actually, blessings are everywhere. Pray hard and may think I have challenges, but I have so many blessings. Sometimes, it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere.

 I was in the midst of a long blog break. Miracles of life are always around you, ready to be celebrated, ready to be welcomed into your life.This come-back is grand. The best way to become really good at something is to teach it to others, to share what you learn. However, blogs are replacing my personal diary. I don't want let blogs overwhelm my life. I need balance in all things to succeed at anything. I've learned to pace myself and to be careful not to bite off more than I can chew. Haha! Do you believe that there is a more fulfilling life ahead? To actually have the ability, but be able to do nothing. I really don't like that. People shouldn't dwell in the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now. People either go to school or get a job. Everyone is heading towards their own career paths. Humans don't really think about the things that they can do. Even though I think all this is a lie when the fact of life hits. I wanted to do something which is useful to humans. Jesus, help me! I'm going to have to go out on faith. Future is expanding by infinite proportions. But then, where is the future of the blog? Let's continue to see growth here. I like to think that as bloggers, we will have the most important role in the future of blogs and their evolution. If people blog for different reasons and not everyone defines success in the same way. I have a lot of goals. Some of them are sitting on a shelf waiting for me to actively get to them. So, I only selectively pick and choose what I can realistically tackle at any given time. Mistakes? Failure? These are my teachers. You never give up, no matter what happens. If something doesn't work for you find another approach. Always make sure you give whatever you are trying a fair chance, give it some time and work through it thoroughly before abandoning it. One of the most important things I've learned is having a work schedule. Almost as important is how to set goals. Then, make a plan for getting to those goals. Stay focused on both the goals and the plan. And like I said, "Never give up, you will get there". Turning mistakes into learning experiences and failure into opportunity is key to success.

 In the midst of world disasters and war at the end of 2004, I feel a sense of hope. I have an opportunity to make a difference. It's time to start. My focus has been on my family, friends and myself. I want a better understanding of the bigger world and culture. I want to look outside myself. I am not sure that I really know how to reach outside myself. I am often reluctant to let others in. I am amazed at some of the stories of how others have made a difference. I am ready to listen, observe and act. It's time to get going so it must start with me. "Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” A bit philosophical here but true to what Mahatma Gandhi would say about personal and social transformation. I have made a commitment to myself to really start living my life. I have always wanted to write and this may present an opportunity to increase my own self-awareness, while sharing my voice with others. Therefore, I'll write blog post randomly so stay tuned. ;)

“I try to live what I consider a "poetic existence." That means I take responsibility for the air I breathe and the space I take up. I try to be immediate, to be totally present for all my work.”Rock and roll music, if you like it, if you feel it, you can't help but move to it. That's what happens to me. I can't help it.' My recovery from manic depression has been an evolution, not a sudden miracle.

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Enjoy it, explore it, experience it. Don't hold back. It is God's gift to you. Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life. 

I've been letting you down. I'm sorry world. Excuse me. I think. I dream. I believe. I listen. I laugh. I live.This is a twenty-something's attempt to find beauty in all things, to seek for meaning and purpose, to appreciate life and its wonders, and to share the love with the world. I have a penchant for remembering the smallest details. I'm a softie when it comes to anything personal and sentimental. I treasure handwritten notes, notebook doodles, small handmade artsy items - just about anything that has a personal touch. I adore kids and I enjoy spending time with them.

Hmmm...I had so many horrid dreams at night. If only it was as simple as it was before. If only nothing changed. If only Inevitable is best accepted with serenity. There are times when you absolutely see no solution. When you've thought and thought and prayed and prayed; when you've sat still in meditation listening for an answer and still no answer comes. There are times when it’s okay to just surrender. I SURRENDER. The day finally came. Twist twist twist in my story. I have written 55 drafts for my current story. I'm still constantly organizing things in a certain way. Hope I'm not the OCD type of person? I'm asserting myself into my adulthood. Seriously,I haven't been exercising since so long. Last time, I would jog 3 times a week without fail but now I only exercise on weekends. This is funny because it's really a time for people to relax and breath. 

Well today is about 6 months since the last entry. Sorry, I was temporarily disconnected. Let's be frank, my bad habits just caught up with me! Yup yup! I  just caught the joyous mood of the festival. Not much else to report and I'm jumping off the edge and learning to fly to resolve another issue.

Oh-woahh, wondering what's on my mind. Don't wonder because the wonder of it all, the wonder that I made. I am here to stay so don't rot and stay fresh! An internet search will throw up hundreds of leads eehehhh. I can be overwhelmed by sweets at festive seasons. Something is different and I'll try to explain it. Well, I got an appointment from the dentist. 2 weeks later, I went to the clinic and she taught me few teeth caring tips such as how to brush teeth and how to use gentle, circular motions to massage and clean the teeth and gums. Then, she cleaned and dried the tooth to be treated and then paint a layer of liquid white plastic material on the pits. It's dental sealant. Lastly, I had a bite adjustment. Everyday, I have to gaggle my mouth with salt water in order to kill the germs.

Notice: This is not for comfort, but also to preserve the health of my teeth...but it's not refreshing at all. What to do? I push and squeezed the gum until a whitish yellow pus came out. It's so yucky and definitely an infection. And of course nobody wants to eat it right?

Tooth crowding, receding gums, ...I just counted and there are more than 20 posts in search for tooth problems. Sensitivity to the temperature on the tooth when I drink or gaggle my mouth made me feel so irritated. Whenever I bite something or just close my mouth, it really hurts. This pain has come over the past few weeks and keep disturbing me like forever...nono I always have teeth pain since Form 4. I think but that's another type of pain so I decided to see the fix the problem but ended up even worse. Who should I blame? Wisdom teeth. Will growing wisdom teeth make me wiser? I don't like this feeling. Sigh, and again I'm too lazy to call up the dentist to tell her this situation. Brushing and gaggling my teeth is a painful task but this doesn't stop me from eating. I really should call and just go back and see her with no doubt.

Then, an appointment was made and had the surgery done. It was a mercy I got out alive. After I went to the treatment for the trea, I felt very much better. Well, I have to deal with root canal later.

Have a good time but get it out ALIVE!

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Thanks for reading all of em'! That's all for now!

I can't believe I can actually do so many things and I have discovered more about myself such as in a traditional way of writing diary. I really love writing and felt that I should make some contribution to this world at least, share life experience to the others to inspire and be inspired.

I learnt to smile and laugh as much as I can. Don't be scared if you heard my maniac laughter sound. I won't bite you. People who's facing problems, I just want to tell you that you are not alone. I sense how you feel. You never know what you can do until you try to do it. God won't give you more than you can handle. Although there may have been times you thought the world was caving in on you, you got through it. You are much stronger than you think and with God's power, you are stronger than you can imagine. So charge ahead, you can handle it.


I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. - Philippians 4:13

I wish to make a difference and I will do it. It is better to do a few things well than a bunch of things shoddily. If you are feeling overwhelmed, don't take on anything more. It's okay, and you might be giving someone else a chance to get involved. You don't have to be all things to all people; a few things to a few people will be just fine. It is the small things that make a big difference. Last but not least, I sincerely thank my family members and friends for their help, encouragement and blessings. Thank you to all of you!

note: haven't seen the dentist yet.

That's not all! I will have a lot more to say so stay tuned. 

Embrace life!
To make a heart:
(remove the dashes)
-h-e-a-r-t-s-

Love,
Angeline

0126 HAPPY day

Yo! I haven't been blogging for few days already. Where have I been?

Wonderful events
100122 - home\ No Form 6 Costume Party -.-
100123 - chatting\ tooth fairy movie\ Mc D food\ shopping\ A&W food\ shopping\ home
100126 - chatting\ 'The Best House' Visitation\ playing\ kidding\ baking\ home

eat eat eat made my stomach felt so FULL all the time these days! I should eat right la burppppp ~.~ haiz
It's just all the bad things in life that make me unhappy. Noone can be happy all the time, right? But I felt grateful and HAPPY today! I shouldn't regret anything that I said because it's what me were feeling at this moment. When people close to you remember things that make you smile or feel special or something else. I always try to be happy at all times no matter what happens =) I didn't tell you to pretend everything is fine when you know that it’s not. There's gonna be some things in life that are going to make it hard for you to smile, but through all you see, all the rain and all the pain, you have to keep your sense of humor and keep on smiling. Think from the bright side mah~ Everyone strives to find it and keep it.

The source of happiness varies from person to person. My today's defination of "Happy" isssss not being pressured by wants and needs. It's having something that I can be glad to share with others. I so happy today cuz I have found my friends whom I can share my interest with. We had a pleasant evening together. No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. haha~I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

Live knowing that somebody loves you; even if it isn't the somebody you want it to be. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Thank you and bye bye!

Can you lay down the burden of perfection now and strive for wholeness, happiness, and peace of mind instead? Peace be with you peeps! ;D

Come on! excercise to fight stress cuz I wanna be happy!

A Time of Crisis

Hey, I'm back again. M-I-A for 2 days. Yeah, I made the days different. Running around singing any song that is distasteful. Watch the video and do what you can.



Am I disturbing the peace? Please don't mind. I am extremely worried about 1 thing. This was about how exhaustive I am, hearing this song. It's sad and beautiful song, but not all is this depressing in relationships, sometimes we cry when things don't turn the way we want, and we make others feel bad. We cry because of the situations, to get their way, to keep from hurting someone else, and to release the over flow of tears that we have. It's good to be able to cry. What do you do when you want to cry but you cannot? Read this if you have time>The boy who cannot cry - The National Newspaper

What's not disturbing in your personal life? There is a precise purpose in those long hours, days of even years of waiting. "And not only so, but let us have joy in our troubles: in the knowledge that trouble gives us the power of waiting. And waiting gives experience; and experience, hope: and hope does not disappoint us..." I just can't wait to see what's more He has for me as I trust Him for His purposes and promises in my life. God understands my prayers even when I can't find the words to say them.

"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, And a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace."

(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8)

Humans are never satisfied with their current state. We do take so much for granted. I'll try my best to enjoy what I have now so I won't look back and regret later. I hope everyone has something to be thankful for, even though there are a lot of hard times

...don't have to wait till Thanksgiving Day to thank people, isn't it?
I'm thankful for the 24 hours I already have ;p
and 'THANK YOU'!

Journey to The Movies

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance so let's dance!

Yeah. I made my day different as compared to yesterday! Haha of course la...Have I told you that I hate routine? I really really really hate daily routine but I like planning..plan for different things to do for everyday. Telling you this wouldn't kill me. We'll change a little bit, a little little bit everyday, and hoping not to become bitter but to become better :p

WhoOoOa~ today morning take bus to meet my besties. It's my first experience of taking the bus to MV. Though it's the normal bus I took to KL but this time I got off the bus before reaching KL or KL city centre to be more precise. Then, I tried to find my way to the place I should meet up with them. I can reach there without getting lost.Woohoo! But then, they made me waited for XX minutes before they turned up! Oh my god, I watched 2 movies in the cinema. One was Sherlock Holmes and another was local Chinese film- Tiger Woohoo. This local film's storyline was quite ok and I guess everyone can guess the ending of the story...what's more? A HAPPY ENDING. In fact, who doesn't like happy ending? The actors overacting in many scenes but I can't denied that they made this comedy movie a sucess. At least, I laughed like @@..good job and keep it up Malaysian artists! I love to read about Sherlock Holmes stories but how about the movie? "Do you believe in magic?" The way Sherlock Holmes explained all kinds of rational and scientific reasons for things. Ah, I love it! That's it. I felt like I was crazy and I haven't felt this way in a year already. What to do? Even the the psychologist states, "Well, you do seem to be obsessed with watching movies.hehee~

On the same day, I satisfied my mouth with japanese food Kodomo Bento.Hmmmm...I was wondering the meaning of the name of the food.Can anyone tell me more about this? Let me describe the food first. Steamed rice with prawn, deep fried fish and "vegetable". I don't like the vegetable especially the yellow sliced ones. It tastes very salty. Yuck!!!

After the movies,we decided to go home. She dropped me off at the highway. It's not even halfway from home =( Uh, I paid twice for the bus fares. I travell locally only wor..how come?

In spite of that, today was another journey of adventure for me. Thank God I'm safe and so are all my friends.

No More School Life

Oh no! It's been pretty boring today. I started to miss the school already. I don't hate school. In fact, school is a GREAT place for learning.There are many things we can learn there. I love the school library where I can read as much books as I like. I love school field. Although it's HOT to stay under the blazing sun during the sport practices and then everybody got tanned and slightly sunburnt but doesn't it feels good when you can run and feel the wind go by? haha! I love school canteen not only because the food is nice and cheap? It's because I can meet up with my gang during break time.Yeahhh, then meet with other gang of friends but...let me clarify for what I said. I'm not a gangster. According to definition on the web, a gangster is a criminal who is a member of gang. I broke school rules before.Oppsss! I was not supposed to tell you this...never mind la~ I already graduated high school. Wouldn't the discipline teacher come my house and cane me? I ate in the classroom. In fact, I was allowed to do so.haha..am I a criminal?

Many things happened in the school. From where I started out at the beginning of the my secondary school life to where we are...then now school life has ended. Everybody was moving on with their lives. Do you know what I'm thinking of?? When it comes to the future, there are three kinds of people: those who let it happen, those who make it happen, and those who wonder what happened. Which one are you?? Maturity of mind is the capacity to endure uncertainty. No one can tell you the future, but you cannot give up, because uncertainty is a part of life. Bleh~~

Just now,I was surfing on the net and taking personality tests. It's a fun way to pass the time and you get to learn more about yourself =) Actually, I never got bored with life. Cook, bake, read, sew, knit,organise my closet,redecorate things, make gifts, watch TV or movie, listen to music,... just wish I had more hands to do a lot of things. Today was a rainy cold day and I was just exercising my fingertips so it wouldn't be so cold.

Happy 12012010, BUSY-ing and soOo please keep yourself, and your family, happy and healthy this season. Adios!

CHRISTmas

Christmas is a universal holiday, which means it is celebrated by Christians, and some non-Christians, all over the world. Almost everyone, regardless of race or culture, views the occasion as a time to be merry and to be extra-nice. A simple wish-'Merry Christmas' to you and your loved ones!

Another hectic year has passed by. On this Christmas, take the time to reflect on the past year. I took a walk to check out the Christmas lights by myself, and I gave thought to all I have gained in my life.

Life never been so easy.

And now these three remain: faith, hope
and love. But the greatest of these is love.
~ 1 Corinthians 13:13

Let us not love with words or tongues,
but with actions and in truth.
~ 1 John 3:18

A simple wish- Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to everyone! Let's prepare our hearts to receive Christ during Christmas

The true meaning of Christmas is about possibility in the midst of the impossible. It is not the kind of possibility that comes from a confidence in our own skill, knowledge, ability, or a positive mental attitude. It is possibility that comes solely from the fact that God is God, and that he is the kind of God who comes into our own human existence to reveal himself and call us to himself. It is a possibility that is so surprising at its birth that we are caught unaware, and so are left with wonder at the simplicity of its expression in this infant child. It is a possibility that is easily symbolized by a helpless infant that has nothing of its own by which to survive; yet an infant that, because he is Immanuel, God with us, will forever change the world and all humanity. It is this same God who has promised to be with us, with his people, with the church and with us individually, as we live as his people in the world.

It is not just hope, as if it were wishful thinking that things will get better when they cannot. It is hope incarnated into flesh, a hope that can be held in a mother’s arms, a hope that expresses a reality that will live beyond endings and death itself. It is the hope, the possibility, that springs from impossible and insignificant beginnings, infused with the power of God through the Holy Spirit, that will blossom into a light to the nations.

It is this possibility, this God, that we celebrate at Christmas. And we do so with a confidence born, not of our own desire for it to be so, but from the birth of a child over 2,000 years ago, a child who was the Son of God!

The meaning of Christmas seems to be forever in danger of being obscured by all the commotion and promotion of the season. Perhaps we continue to ask the question for fear that the answer will be lost, or already is lost, in the shuffle.

Hopefully, someone's heart will have been opened up to the love of Christ for them. Only time will tell.


Love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:5
A joyful heart is good medicine, but depression drains one's strength. Proverbs 17:22

if you pay close attention to wisdom, and let your mind reach for understanding,
Proverbs 2:2
For he will not often consider the years of his life, because (AC)God keeps him occupied with the gladness of his heart. Ecclesiastes 5:20

Then fill me with joy by having the same attitude and the same love, living in harmony, and keeping one purpose in mind. Philippians 2:2
And immediately when Jesus perceived in his spirit that they so reasoned within themselves, he said to them, Why reason you these things in your hearts? Mark 2:8

All the ends of the earth will remember and return to the LORD. All the families from all the nations will worship you. Psalm 22:27
John 1:14, "And the word was made (became) flesh, and dwelt among us."

Which Word was it that became flesh? It was the same Word that already was in the beginning. We read in John 1:1, “In the beginning was the Word! ----- This phrase is rich with truth! It means that if we were to roll back the curtain of time we would find the Word. He was already there before the beginning. When was the beginning? We don’t know, but if ever we got back there we would discover that the Word was already in attendance. And this same Word became flesh; this Word became one of us, not to damn us, but to rescue us. Is this not a good reason for thankfulness this Christmas? Is this not cause for praise and adoration? God and man in one glorious person! God in flesh appearing, mighty to save! What rich and heart-warming truths to meditate upon.

Look at the manger and behold your God! It is staggering! Here is incontestable proof that God is not angry with His people; God is not frowning at us; God is not against us. He’s for us. He loves us passionately! Look and listen, there are no threats being issued from the manger. God has become one of us! Through Christ, His favor is resting upon us! Well may we sing “O come let us adore Him!”

God became a human, a real human, yet a sinless and perfect one and as a man He was, "holy, harmless, undefiled and separate from sinners" (Hebrews 7:26). And this is the way it had to be because only a sinless sacrifice could rescue sinners like us from the wrath which is to come.


And so it is that here in the manger we see the arrival of our representative, made human so that He could become our substitute. This Child of Bethlehem is the unfolding of the eternal purposes of God. In this child, God’s passion for us is fully displayed.


When we consider that this little one would go on to pour out His blood for our sins and would redeem and reconcile us unto God then perhaps, as we meditate on Him, our song will not only be “Joy to the World” but also “Hallelujah, what a Savior!”


And that’s the Gospel Truth!

Have a good day!

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Suffering and loss can be a gift

It teaches us, increases our faith, and strengthens our hope. We more greatly appreciate what is coming our way in eternity. We realize that life as it ought to be is not yet here, and the fullness of the promise of our inheritance is not yet received in full. We have not yet seen face to face. When will we make God our source of joy and not what He can give us, do for us, or what we can do for Him?

I just wanna thank God for everything that He has done for me. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
 Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles.
Thank You Lord! I know you're watching lol

I lurrrve you :)

GOD IS ! Why?
found in Romans 5:8, "But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."

Hello Sunday! we all went to church but not with mum. Today is the 1st Sunday of July... children sat quietly at the sanctuary to hear the message. When each of us loves God, God promises that "the Lord will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the Lord your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom. Deuteronomy 28:13

Mum just came back from Kuching trip. After church service, we went to airport to fetch her home . We hardly could find her cuz she told us that she's at the aras 3 pintu 5. When we arrived there, we didn't even see her shadow. We had turned 2 big round before we can find her. She went into airport instead of standing at the waiting area... I must forgive her cuz she brought many many chocolates from the air port. hahaha! That's all for today.