Days of Silence

Hello peeps
I come in peace ;p
Hah, I ♥ the pic!


This is my first post for April. Beware. Don't get fooled! I didn't write blog for some time and found that I almost got crazy already. Let's think on the bright side. My obession with the internet has decreased. *clap**clap* I can focus and concentrate to do other things. I'm still learning to relax myself but not too much at one time. Haiz, it's not easy as ABC. I have been enduring for the unfolding emotions and dramatic conflicts. How draaaaamaaatic O.o

Yeah, I was in state of silence for xx days. Whoa, a new record! Hmmm...how well you can define silence? From the definitions on the web, silence is the condition or quality of being or keeping still and silent,the absence of sound; stillness, a period of time without speech or noise, refusal or failure to speak out. Silence is a relative or total lack of audible sound. Friends also might wonder what's going on? My silence was so surprising?

Is it the weight that I'm carrying on is much too heavy for one human being? Don't be confused. I'm not pregnant. I wanna give some of that "weight" where it belongs. What weight? Secret*. Jesus, I need you now. Yeah, I have faith that what happens is for the best, whether I understand it or not. I'm like the optimists looking for the light at the end the tunnel? Come on, time is fading. There's no point playing the blame game again,blaming on that has happened. The important point is that we should start believing God to work out our problems, just as I would believe Him to work out anything else that’s wrong in my life so I will continue to do my best to make a difference. Never, ever give up if you still want to try... ...

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better"
- Samuel Beckett

I can do all things through Christ, He who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:13

By the way, my weight has gone up><". This is the result of energy input > energy output. -.-" People want to gain weight to keep up with friends or for all sorts of reasons. When is training session for the run? I'm gonna start traning , lose fats and build stamina! NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

I am killing the time and time is killing me too. Now, my eyes make me look tired. Sleepless night? Come on,this is just a temporary condition. Those dark circles under the eyes will be gone when I'm feeling better, right? Faith is about believing strongly when logic can’t support an answer. Life involves taking many risks every day, and not all of them will end positively. Life is BEAUTIFUL. I’ve got nothing to complain about already so I should Z-I-P my mouth. There's enough time to do it, with no time to waste. OK, let's move on. I missed you XD Aha, do you get me?
I ♥ this song. This was something I needed to hear!




extraction part of the lyrics

I need Your power to renew me, Lord, yeah
I need to know You're moving through me, Lord

I need You as my refuge
My first and last resort
Be the river always running
Through my deepest thoughts
Keep me in Your arms
'Cause even when I drift
I want to love You better than this

So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me


Adios. God Bless~

One kind of Moment

This week is quite special. I had mixed feelings. Only a couple of times this 'special' kind of moment happened in my life. Each moment counts. For this moment is all we ever have. Would we really want to go change everything? The past is gone and the future is yet to be. What we can do cause we are who and where and what we are for now and this is the only moment we can do anything about. Be safe and good, or take a chance and be great? Hectic pace. The future is unclear for me.

I realised that I kept using that word 'we' in this post. Is this an appropriate noun to be used in writing? Should I change that to 'I'? Will using too much of 'I' cause people feel he/she a incredibly self-centered person?

OMG, where's the main point? I have never been a killer. Hope I didn't kill your brain cells. Back to this moment...listening to my heartbeat and there’s a wonder in the here and now. It’s right there in front of me and I don’t want to miss the chance. There’s only one who knows what’s really out there waiting in all the moments yet to be.

Sometimes I reach at a point where I like the feeling of the moment that's where I want to stop but I've been given these moments to encourage me along the way. Don't let those precious minutes pass me by. I want to live for every moment! Dear heavenly father in heaven, I need your guidance in doing the things I ought to do. Help me to trust in you all the time. I'll trust you as I trust the telephone to transmit my voice.

Jesus, remember me when I face the struggles and stresses of life.
Jesus, remember me when I feel like You're not there.
Jesus, remember me when the guilt of my past haunts me like a relentless ghost.

Do you believe God gives you the desires of your heart? When God grants my heart’s desire according to His purpose...if it is possible let this cup pass me by but not according to will but let His will be done?

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7
whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
Hope it is well.

Times when words cannot express

YES! Less than 24 hours then I can meet my besties. >besties: tell me do you feel the same as me? How's my life? Its seems just like yesterday, almost the same.However I changed it a little and make it a little bit different.*OMG!self-talking*. I was self-talking again. However, it's positive self-talk, not the negative ones*lucky**lucky* Life is what you can make of it. You can’t control all the events in your life, but you can always decide what the events mean to you and how you are going to act on it, right? Then, we have to live with the consequences of our choices. Make the right choice and you would prosper. Make the wrong choice and you would suffer. I was examining my inner process*.* Too many thoughts are going through my mind and I can't express all. There are times when words cannot express, so you wouldn't understand...

I have started thinking about the purpose of being alive since when I was a kid *lol* I feel happy to be able to spend my every single day even though sometimes I feel bad but I'll forgive and forget. Weeping at night alone? Don't worry. Joy will come in the morning. To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future. haha!

For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may remain for a night,
but rejoicing comes in the morning. (Psalm 30:5)

Be it unto me
According to your Word
According to your promises
I can stand secure
Carve upon my heart
The truth that sets me free
According to your Word O Lord
Be it unto me

Since when I become so downhearted? It's seems like there is no hope of accomplishing any dream. "Like success, failure is many things to many people. With Positive Mental Attitude, failure is a learning experience, a rung on the ladder, a plateau at which to get your thoughts in order and prepare to try again."-W. Clement Stone ...so I was not supposed to sound like this!*no tears**don't worry**wake up* So what are you doing today? Produce your life phrases and make your day extraordinary! Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does. Come on! Bring more positive energy into your life.

If you are really thankful, what do you do? Let me share this video and make you feel the warmth of the day. Let's go back, way back, back into old time and watch this video.



I watched this cartoon series when I was in my early childhood. It's my bros' favourite. Up untill now, I only know the title of the show-"Oggy and the Cockroaches". It was fun watching it just because of the crazy characters + funny sound effect in it.haha~

I'm a milkaholic. Chocolate milk! *gulp**gulp* Yum yum yummy!!
May God Bless You

When you discover your mission, you will feel its demand. It will fill you with enthusiasm and a burning desire to get to work on it.

MUET speaking

*sigh* sick and nervous...my pronunciation of words suck! Today was the MUET speaking test. I knew I did not do well in the test -_-".Well what can I do? I tried so hard to speak words out. I'm so frustrated with the lack of ideas. Of course curse words were in no way, shape, or form allowed out of our mouths and nobody would say it out!!! I was so very happy that I have found this wonderful group of very supportive people. DRic, HGuang, and KOnn, I just love to talk with them and they are nice people. (:
Thank you for your progressive ideas that has helped me to generate more ideas.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

Everyone makes mistakes and makes a lot of mistakes. The past is done and no one can change it. I can't lay in bed all day miserable because that doesn't change what I did. What's important is learn from mistakes. All we have to do is wait until the results will be released. So, let's just wait and wait and wait. hahaha...

Let go...

Today, I can't play piano very well at the beginning of the worship service but at last still managed to end up well. At least got better than last time. I joined back Youth Ablaze after had been missing for a very long time at somewhere else. Praise God! I can see more and more youth coming to church now.The room was cool enough and my hands felt so cold. Surprisingly, I was asked to share a testimony and I think I had show the X] look again. I want to change it. It was my BAD HABIT!
See this. When I take away the 'H' from the word, I got ABIT= a bit . Then when I minus 'A', I got BIT. Last, I minus 'T', what is left?

'I'. Overall, I still have that HABIT!  Can you guess what bad habit of yours? How often have you kicked yourself for, yet again, succumbing to bad habits? Any time you feel stressed and unhappy you're following an ingrained bad habit of seriousness that you created in your brain through years of repetition.

Why do I look so sad? I want to break BAD habits and build good ones. *.*There's a time to step out of the mire of the past and let the Lord work His will in our lives, and not be burdened with the dead past.
He heard my voice. My cry for help reached his ears.

In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free. The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? (Psalm 118:5-6)
I want to let go the past and move on.