What A Night

ooh, ooh, ooh we were so lucky that night!

Last Saturday, family, friends, and I went to church anniversary dinner. I was so happy to see some of old church friends to be around. It's been some time since we have seen each other. I think I overreacted too. Some kids have grown taller and looking good yeah! I guess in some certain ways I've been working it but still about the same height. I will because I can, I can because I want to, I want to because you said I couldn't. Believe it or not, we the older ones can still continue to grow 3 to 4 inches more over our lifetime so don't give up on growth. Before the event started, we spent some time on catching up on each other's stories. Somehow, I miss our times together. I wonder if anyone feel the same as I do. 

There's celebration performance by church members, messages. We sang along with every song we know and then straight to feast time! We had our casual dining style, 8 dishes- from appetizer to main dish and finishing off with dessert. Then, came the time for the biggest surprise- lucky draw. We didn't expect to win anything. Everything was like normal until the number 0065 was announced. Mum was too excited until she gave me the wrong number omg. After that, we waited for few more prizes to be given out. Then, dad said, 'ho liao dim dui' in hokkien meaning good quality thing at the bottom part. We got lucky twice. I think my dad has extrasensory perception or any psychic power haha. Right after my dad said, "God will give you". the event host announced the number 0070, we shouted mirthfully. FIRST prize! Mum's friend got up to stage to claim the prize. It was a food hamper. Although it's not very expensive prize, we still felt very lucky and happy to share the joy of winning. After bidding friends farewell, we laughed all the way home.

A couple of things I learned:

1. I need to be more courageous. No matter what outcome is, you have to do to go through that challenge, right? I would definitely invite my friends to come for this kind of event next time! 

2. Speak more blessings into people's life. A blessing is not a blessing until it is spoken so may God Bless you!

3. Now, to you who are reading this, good things come to those who wait because "ho liao" coming soon!

GBU :)

Sweat, sweat life

Stop comparing yourself to other people! Some people are great singers, some are really smart and others are great athletes. But none of them are, or ever could be you. You are one of a kind. So stop comparing yourself to other people! You can't be them any more than they can be you.

                                                                        chubby face + dark circles under eyes *.*

Oh, yes, talking about one of my goals. I'm glad that I started jogging again since my holiday break cuz I really needed to burn off the extra body fats accumulated during my lack-of-exercise period. I found myself gaining more and more muscles around arms and calves. Good news or bad news? I'm gonna bring the house down haha! I want to get back in shape. I have promised myself no more snack at night or midnight unless I'm HYPO...no more physical or psychological setback! Recently, I tend to sweat behind the knee after I had completed exercise routine. Usually, that happens because it's hot!

I went for nice jog around the park. Here is a picture of the park heh. It was actually taken more than a year ago.

Pigeon- one of the bird species that is very common in Malaysia. I wonder how they become part of the bird world in Malaysia. May be they accidently fly to Malaysia, found their soul-mate and then settled down just like that omg. There must some great stories behind these birds! Many of the most common birds in were introduced by settlers. Some that were released to control agricultural pests have become pests themselves. Problems with birds entering or nesting on premises? Seldom people keep birds as pets these days. Once upon a time, when I was about 5 or so, my family had parrots as our pet birds. One day, when we came back from vacation, they all died. I can't remember the reason how that happened. I only remembered the feeling of losing something precious, something that is part of our daily life. Life goes on~

Well, I would try to take photo during night jog. Hopefully, everything will be alright during night time omg. It's almost the end of the month. And now, I almost reach the end of my holiday life.Therefore, I must accomplish the goals that I have planned. Life is a mission!

I would like to share a short film by Disney Pixar! It teaches a valuable lesson in a fun way.

The Great Revival

Hey, as I promised before, I'm back here!

I'm sorry that I had quietly walked away from the blog and left a moment of silence. I had chaos of thoughts and went through some crazy times. Well, it took me courage to stand back and embrace this life. I have learnt that I should have live life abundantly. When life storms hit you, don't be weary, but stand up and face the challenge. Life is good anyway. Don't worry. I'm still very much ALIVE and living well. I hope everyone is living well too.

Could you imagine that I have about 50 drafts left in my blog post? I had a good laugh while reading these drafts. I decided to post some of them up here to share tits and bits of my life.This were written long ago so please keep reading if you really have that free time because it's gonna be a long post =)

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Welcome Back!

Hello world! It's February 2012 already. I'm back after vanishing into a black hole since August 2010. If you have noticed, I didn't update my blog for about one and half year already. Sorry guys, I learned a lot during these period of time. Please bear with me. I lost the confidence and courage in everything. I blamed myself and hatred myself as an useless person. Thank you Jesus. He is the one that heals my soul. I find comfort in Him when nothing else helps. I feel His power. I am not afraid because He is with me. Now all I know...it seems I'm more understand without Christ, I am nothing. I do not think of ending up my life because of certain issues I faced . By His mercy and grace, I'm able to break out from fallen position, rise up and walk again. It's not how you see yourself. Focus my eyes upon Jesus. He draws me closer to Him. The purpose I revive this blog again is to share my life experience with people around the world or may be other living organism at the outer space as well? I accept myself and knowing I am the creation of my beautiful Father. In the days to come, I shall live out my special calling. I do not know how God is going to direct my life's script, but I trust in Him that He will make a way for me. I would like to thank my family for always supporting me on this journey of life. Also, thanks to my old friends and new friends who accompanying me so far. I enjoy to have all my high school peeps who made my worth remembering for life. I'm so thankful to have such a great bunch of friends. You guys rocks! So for now, this blog will be back to normal with frequent updates. A little updates. I have been all good lately; just finished my finals and currently on my semester break. I do appreciate the things that happened lately. I enjoy every single hang out we had.

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Bonjour! I'M BACK!!!!! First, I would like to thank you for supporting me. Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.


I'm going through a magical moment. My heart skipped don't know how many beats. This is a strange enough new play on words. I found out something that is valuable to me has lost. Actually, blessings are everywhere. Pray hard and may think I have challenges, but I have so many blessings. Sometimes, it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere.

 I was in the midst of a long blog break. Miracles of life are always around you, ready to be celebrated, ready to be welcomed into your life.This come-back is grand. The best way to become really good at something is to teach it to others, to share what you learn. However, blogs are replacing my personal diary. I don't want let blogs overwhelm my life. I need balance in all things to succeed at anything. I've learned to pace myself and to be careful not to bite off more than I can chew. Haha! Do you believe that there is a more fulfilling life ahead? To actually have the ability, but be able to do nothing. I really don't like that. People shouldn't dwell in the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now. People either go to school or get a job. Everyone is heading towards their own career paths. Humans don't really think about the things that they can do. Even though I think all this is a lie when the fact of life hits. I wanted to do something which is useful to humans. Jesus, help me! I'm going to have to go out on faith. Future is expanding by infinite proportions. But then, where is the future of the blog? Let's continue to see growth here. I like to think that as bloggers, we will have the most important role in the future of blogs and their evolution. If people blog for different reasons and not everyone defines success in the same way. I have a lot of goals. Some of them are sitting on a shelf waiting for me to actively get to them. So, I only selectively pick and choose what I can realistically tackle at any given time. Mistakes? Failure? These are my teachers. You never give up, no matter what happens. If something doesn't work for you find another approach. Always make sure you give whatever you are trying a fair chance, give it some time and work through it thoroughly before abandoning it. One of the most important things I've learned is having a work schedule. Almost as important is how to set goals. Then, make a plan for getting to those goals. Stay focused on both the goals and the plan. And like I said, "Never give up, you will get there". Turning mistakes into learning experiences and failure into opportunity is key to success.

 In the midst of world disasters and war at the end of 2004, I feel a sense of hope. I have an opportunity to make a difference. It's time to start. My focus has been on my family, friends and myself. I want a better understanding of the bigger world and culture. I want to look outside myself. I am not sure that I really know how to reach outside myself. I am often reluctant to let others in. I am amazed at some of the stories of how others have made a difference. I am ready to listen, observe and act. It's time to get going so it must start with me. "Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” A bit philosophical here but true to what Mahatma Gandhi would say about personal and social transformation. I have made a commitment to myself to really start living my life. I have always wanted to write and this may present an opportunity to increase my own self-awareness, while sharing my voice with others. Therefore, I'll write blog post randomly so stay tuned. ;)

“I try to live what I consider a "poetic existence." That means I take responsibility for the air I breathe and the space I take up. I try to be immediate, to be totally present for all my work.”Rock and roll music, if you like it, if you feel it, you can't help but move to it. That's what happens to me. I can't help it.' My recovery from manic depression has been an evolution, not a sudden miracle.

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Enjoy it, explore it, experience it. Don't hold back. It is God's gift to you. Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life. 

I've been letting you down. I'm sorry world. Excuse me. I think. I dream. I believe. I listen. I laugh. I live.This is a twenty-something's attempt to find beauty in all things, to seek for meaning and purpose, to appreciate life and its wonders, and to share the love with the world. I have a penchant for remembering the smallest details. I'm a softie when it comes to anything personal and sentimental. I treasure handwritten notes, notebook doodles, small handmade artsy items - just about anything that has a personal touch. I adore kids and I enjoy spending time with them.

Hmmm...I had so many horrid dreams at night. If only it was as simple as it was before. If only nothing changed. If only Inevitable is best accepted with serenity. There are times when you absolutely see no solution. When you've thought and thought and prayed and prayed; when you've sat still in meditation listening for an answer and still no answer comes. There are times when it’s okay to just surrender. I SURRENDER. The day finally came. Twist twist twist in my story. I have written 55 drafts for my current story. I'm still constantly organizing things in a certain way. Hope I'm not the OCD type of person? I'm asserting myself into my adulthood. Seriously,I haven't been exercising since so long. Last time, I would jog 3 times a week without fail but now I only exercise on weekends. This is funny because it's really a time for people to relax and breath. 

Well today is about 6 months since the last entry. Sorry, I was temporarily disconnected. Let's be frank, my bad habits just caught up with me! Yup yup! I  just caught the joyous mood of the festival. Not much else to report and I'm jumping off the edge and learning to fly to resolve another issue.

Oh-woahh, wondering what's on my mind. Don't wonder because the wonder of it all, the wonder that I made. I am here to stay so don't rot and stay fresh! An internet search will throw up hundreds of leads eehehhh. I can be overwhelmed by sweets at festive seasons. Something is different and I'll try to explain it. Well, I got an appointment from the dentist. 2 weeks later, I went to the clinic and she taught me few teeth caring tips such as how to brush teeth and how to use gentle, circular motions to massage and clean the teeth and gums. Then, she cleaned and dried the tooth to be treated and then paint a layer of liquid white plastic material on the pits. It's dental sealant. Lastly, I had a bite adjustment. Everyday, I have to gaggle my mouth with salt water in order to kill the germs.

Notice: This is not for comfort, but also to preserve the health of my teeth...but it's not refreshing at all. What to do? I push and squeezed the gum until a whitish yellow pus came out. It's so yucky and definitely an infection. And of course nobody wants to eat it right?

Tooth crowding, receding gums, ...I just counted and there are more than 20 posts in search for tooth problems. Sensitivity to the temperature on the tooth when I drink or gaggle my mouth made me feel so irritated. Whenever I bite something or just close my mouth, it really hurts. This pain has come over the past few weeks and keep disturbing me like forever...nono I always have teeth pain since Form 4. I think but that's another type of pain so I decided to see the fix the problem but ended up even worse. Who should I blame? Wisdom teeth. Will growing wisdom teeth make me wiser? I don't like this feeling. Sigh, and again I'm too lazy to call up the dentist to tell her this situation. Brushing and gaggling my teeth is a painful task but this doesn't stop me from eating. I really should call and just go back and see her with no doubt.

Then, an appointment was made and had the surgery done. It was a mercy I got out alive. After I went to the treatment for the trea, I felt very much better. Well, I have to deal with root canal later.

Have a good time but get it out ALIVE!

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Thanks for reading all of em'! That's all for now!

I can't believe I can actually do so many things and I have discovered more about myself such as in a traditional way of writing diary. I really love writing and felt that I should make some contribution to this world at least, share life experience to the others to inspire and be inspired.

I learnt to smile and laugh as much as I can. Don't be scared if you heard my maniac laughter sound. I won't bite you. People who's facing problems, I just want to tell you that you are not alone. I sense how you feel. You never know what you can do until you try to do it. God won't give you more than you can handle. Although there may have been times you thought the world was caving in on you, you got through it. You are much stronger than you think and with God's power, you are stronger than you can imagine. So charge ahead, you can handle it.


I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. - Philippians 4:13

I wish to make a difference and I will do it. It is better to do a few things well than a bunch of things shoddily. If you are feeling overwhelmed, don't take on anything more. It's okay, and you might be giving someone else a chance to get involved. You don't have to be all things to all people; a few things to a few people will be just fine. It is the small things that make a big difference. Last but not least, I sincerely thank my family members and friends for their help, encouragement and blessings. Thank you to all of you!

note: haven't seen the dentist yet.

That's not all! I will have a lot more to say so stay tuned. 

Embrace life!
To make a heart:
(remove the dashes)
-h-e-a-r-t-s-

Love,
Angeline

Days of Silence

Hello peeps
I come in peace ;p
Hah, I ♥ the pic!


This is my first post for April. Beware. Don't get fooled! I didn't write blog for some time and found that I almost got crazy already. Let's think on the bright side. My obession with the internet has decreased. *clap**clap* I can focus and concentrate to do other things. I'm still learning to relax myself but not too much at one time. Haiz, it's not easy as ABC. I have been enduring for the unfolding emotions and dramatic conflicts. How draaaaamaaatic O.o

Yeah, I was in state of silence for xx days. Whoa, a new record! Hmmm...how well you can define silence? From the definitions on the web, silence is the condition or quality of being or keeping still and silent,the absence of sound; stillness, a period of time without speech or noise, refusal or failure to speak out. Silence is a relative or total lack of audible sound. Friends also might wonder what's going on? My silence was so surprising?

Is it the weight that I'm carrying on is much too heavy for one human being? Don't be confused. I'm not pregnant. I wanna give some of that "weight" where it belongs. What weight? Secret*. Jesus, I need you now. Yeah, I have faith that what happens is for the best, whether I understand it or not. I'm like the optimists looking for the light at the end the tunnel? Come on, time is fading. There's no point playing the blame game again,blaming on that has happened. The important point is that we should start believing God to work out our problems, just as I would believe Him to work out anything else that’s wrong in my life so I will continue to do my best to make a difference. Never, ever give up if you still want to try... ...

"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better"
- Samuel Beckett

I can do all things through Christ, He who gives me strength.

Philippians 4:13

By the way, my weight has gone up><". This is the result of energy input > energy output. -.-" People want to gain weight to keep up with friends or for all sorts of reasons. When is training session for the run? I'm gonna start traning , lose fats and build stamina! NOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND?

I am killing the time and time is killing me too. Now, my eyes make me look tired. Sleepless night? Come on,this is just a temporary condition. Those dark circles under the eyes will be gone when I'm feeling better, right? Faith is about believing strongly when logic can’t support an answer. Life involves taking many risks every day, and not all of them will end positively. Life is BEAUTIFUL. I’ve got nothing to complain about already so I should Z-I-P my mouth. There's enough time to do it, with no time to waste. OK, let's move on. I missed you XD Aha, do you get me?
I ♥ this song. This was something I needed to hear!




extraction part of the lyrics

I need Your power to renew me, Lord, yeah
I need to know You're moving through me, Lord

I need You as my refuge
My first and last resort
Be the river always running
Through my deepest thoughts
Keep me in Your arms
'Cause even when I drift
I want to love You better than this

So renew me, Remake me
Undo me, Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me, Complete me
Pursue me, Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me


Adios. God Bless~

Finding The Right Path

Trials dark on every hand, and we cannot understand
all the ways of God would lead us we wonder why the test
when we try to do our best, but we'll understand it better by and by
Oh Lord Jesus I need your guidance right now
I need to be restored
I need guidance in my heart and my step
Help me to find the right path for me to go now

Unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul.
O my God, I trust in thee
let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me
Psalms 25:1-2

Journalling

Holidays are great. Being on holiday is the only time of the year when I get to relax. When the holidays are over, then I will say I wish I had more holidays. There's no right or wrong way to enjoy the holidays. I got something to do to escape the “I'm bored” doldrums. Chances are good that, at some point in your life, you've journalled. In journalling right now. The best is there's no rules around journalling. Journalling can affect both physical and mental wellbeing. Let your thoughts flow and preserve your memories. But be caredful! Feelings won't be safe from the people around you, you may consider journalling on the computer. It's hard to keep a journal in a safe place though. Protect privacy when writing a internet journal? You may consider password-protecting your journal? What if hackers break into your network, how would the press ever find out? Though internet jounalling is faster and easier but I prefer the traditional methods of writing a journal. Don't worry. I will keep sharing lifetime stories with you all :p What were you thinking ?

"Nearly 4 billion trees worldwide are cut down each year for paper, ... uses 749 pounds of paper every year (adding up to a whopping 187 billion pounds per year for ... nearly 90000 sheets of paper or 2700 copies of a 35-page newspaper!" - extracted from ecology.com

Reduce the consumption of products made from trees. Save trees, save the world so I was thinking of 3R concept-'reduce, reuse, recycle' aspects can be incorporated into this activity. I make creative use of the available things around...don't have to waste $$ to buy sheets of paper [][][][][][]

I was surfing the internet and I remembered to share with all of you on "How to type hearts on your keyboard?" Let's make heart symbols with the numeric keypads. First, make sure the numlock mode on your keyboard is on. Then, holding down "Alt" key while typing 1 for ☺, 2 for ☻, 3 for ♥, 4 for ♦, 5 for ♣, 6 for ♠, 7 for •, 8 for ◘, 9 for ○, 10 for ◙, .11 for ♂, 12 for ♀, 13 for ♪, 14 for ♫, 15 for ☼, 16 for ►, 17 for ◄, 18 for ↕, 19 for ‼, 20 for ¶, 21 for §, 22 for ▬, 23 for ↨, 24 for ↑, 25 for ↓, 26 for →, 27 for ←, 28 for ∟, 29 for ↔, 30 for ▲, 31 for ▼, ...

Remember to hold down "Alt" key and enter number you want to get those symbols. By the way, you can use character map to do it but that one is different case already cuz you're not using the keypad anymore =_=".. go start> accessories> system tools> character map..then explore the map lol ^U^

I wonder why ALT+18 and ALT+23 is the same?
Have fun playing with that ♥~and generate the minimum amount of waste *wink**wink**wink*.

0126 HAPPY day

Yo! I haven't been blogging for few days already. Where have I been?

Wonderful events
100122 - home\ No Form 6 Costume Party -.-
100123 - chatting\ tooth fairy movie\ Mc D food\ shopping\ A&W food\ shopping\ home
100126 - chatting\ 'The Best House' Visitation\ playing\ kidding\ baking\ home

eat eat eat made my stomach felt so FULL all the time these days! I should eat right la burppppp ~.~ haiz
It's just all the bad things in life that make me unhappy. Noone can be happy all the time, right? But I felt grateful and HAPPY today! I shouldn't regret anything that I said because it's what me were feeling at this moment. When people close to you remember things that make you smile or feel special or something else. I always try to be happy at all times no matter what happens =) I didn't tell you to pretend everything is fine when you know that it’s not. There's gonna be some things in life that are going to make it hard for you to smile, but through all you see, all the rain and all the pain, you have to keep your sense of humor and keep on smiling. Think from the bright side mah~ Everyone strives to find it and keep it.

The source of happiness varies from person to person. My today's defination of "Happy" isssss not being pressured by wants and needs. It's having something that I can be glad to share with others. I so happy today cuz I have found my friends whom I can share my interest with. We had a pleasant evening together. No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. haha~I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.

Live knowing that somebody loves you; even if it isn't the somebody you want it to be. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Thank you and bye bye!

Can you lay down the burden of perfection now and strive for wholeness, happiness, and peace of mind instead? Peace be with you peeps! ;D

Come on! excercise to fight stress cuz I wanna be happy!

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Haha that's it to end my post I'll say" May God Bless you and have a wonderful weekend!"