Hey, as I promised before, I'm back here!
I'm sorry that I had quietly walked away from the blog and left a moment of silence. I had chaos of thoughts and went through some crazy times. Well, it took me courage to stand back and embrace this life. I have learnt that I should have live life abundantly. When life storms hit you, don't be weary, but stand up and face the challenge. Life is good anyway. Don't worry. I'm still very much ALIVE and living well. I hope everyone is living well too.
Could you imagine that I have about 50 drafts left in my blog post? I had a good laugh while reading these drafts. I decided to post some of them up here to share tits and bits of my life.This were written long ago so please keep reading if you really have that free time because it's gonna be a long post =)
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Welcome Back!
Hello world! It's February 2012 already. I'm back after vanishing into a black hole since August 2010. If you have noticed, I didn't update my blog for about one and half year already. Sorry guys, I learned a lot during these period of time. Please bear with me. I lost the confidence and courage in everything. I blamed myself and hatred myself as an useless person. Thank you Jesus. He is the one that heals my soul. I find comfort in Him when nothing else helps. I feel His power. I am not afraid because He is with me. Now all I know...it seems I'm more understand without Christ, I am nothing. I do not think of ending up my life because of certain issues I faced . By His mercy and grace, I'm able to break out from fallen position, rise up and walk again. It's not how you see yourself. Focus my eyes upon Jesus. He draws me closer to Him. The purpose I revive this blog again is to share my life experience with people around the world or may be other living organism at the outer space as well? I accept myself and knowing I am the creation of my beautiful Father. In the days to come, I shall live out my special calling. I do not know how God is going to direct my life's script, but I trust in Him that He will make a way for me. I would like to thank my family for always supporting me on this journey of life. Also, thanks to my old friends and new friends who accompanying me so far. I enjoy to have all my high school peeps who made my worth remembering for life. I'm so thankful to have such a great bunch of friends. You guys rocks! So for now, this blog will be back to normal with frequent updates. A little updates. I have been all good lately; just finished my finals and currently on my semester break. I do appreciate the things that happened lately. I enjoy every single hang out we had.
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Bonjour! I'M BACK!!!!! First, I would like to thank you for supporting me. Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.
I'm going through a magical moment. My heart skipped don't know how many beats. This is a strange enough new play on words. I found out something that is valuable to me has lost. Actually, blessings are everywhere. Pray hard and may think I have challenges, but I have so many blessings. Sometimes, it takes only a moment of conscious effort to recognize those blessings. Once you focus on the gifts instead of the problems, your whole perspective will change and you will see blessings everywhere.
I was in the midst of a long blog break. Miracles of life are always around you, ready to be celebrated, ready to be welcomed into your life.This come-back is grand. The best way to become really good at something is to teach it to others, to share what you learn. However, blogs are replacing my personal diary. I don't want let blogs overwhelm my life. I need balance in all things to succeed at anything. I've learned to pace myself and to be careful not to bite off more than I can chew. Haha! Do you believe that there is a more fulfilling life ahead? To actually have the ability, but be able to do nothing. I really don't like that. People shouldn't dwell in the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now. People either go to school or get a job. Everyone is heading towards their own career paths. Humans don't really think about the things that they can do. Even though I think all this is a lie when the fact of life hits. I wanted to do something which is useful to humans. Jesus, help me! I'm going to have to go out on faith. Future is expanding by infinite proportions. But then, where is the future of the blog? Let's continue to see growth here. I like to think that as bloggers, we will have the most important role in the future of blogs and their evolution. If people blog for different reasons and not everyone defines success in the same way. I have a lot of goals. Some of them are sitting on a shelf waiting for me to actively get to them. So, I only selectively pick and choose what I can realistically tackle at any given time. Mistakes? Failure? These are my teachers. You never give up, no matter what happens. If something doesn't work for you find another approach. Always make sure you give whatever you are trying a fair chance, give it some time and work through it thoroughly before abandoning it. One of the most important things I've learned is having a work schedule. Almost as important is how to set goals. Then, make a plan for getting to those goals. Stay focused on both the goals and the plan. And like I said, "Never give up, you will get there". Turning mistakes into learning experiences and failure into opportunity is key to success.
In the midst of world disasters and war at the end of 2004, I feel a sense of hope. I have an opportunity to make a difference. It's time to start. My focus has been on my family, friends and myself. I want a better understanding of the bigger world and culture. I want to look outside myself. I am not sure that I really know how to reach outside myself. I am often reluctant to let others in. I am amazed at some of the stories of how others have made a difference. I am ready to listen, observe and act. It's time to get going so it must start with me. "Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” A bit philosophical here but true to what Mahatma Gandhi would say about personal and social transformation.
I have made a commitment to myself to really start living my life. I have always wanted to write and this may present an opportunity to increase my own self-awareness, while sharing my voice with others. Therefore, I'll write blog post randomly so stay tuned. ;)
“I try to live what I consider a "poetic existence." That means I take responsibility for the air I breathe and the space I take up. I try to be immediate, to be totally present for all my work.”Rock and roll music, if you like it, if you feel it, you can't help but move to it. That's what happens to me. I can't help it.' My recovery from manic depression has been an evolution, not a sudden miracle.
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Enjoy it, explore it, experience it. Don't hold back. It is God's gift to you. Don't be a wallflower in the dance of life.
I've been letting you down. I'm sorry world. Excuse me. I think.
I dream. I believe. I listen. I laugh.
I live.This is a twenty-something's attempt to find beauty in all things, to seek for meaning and purpose, to appreciate life and its wonders, and to share the love with the world. I have a penchant for remembering the smallest details. I'm a softie when it comes to anything personal and sentimental. I treasure handwritten notes, notebook doodles, small handmade artsy items - just about anything that has a personal touch. I adore kids and I enjoy spending time with them.
Hmmm...I had so many horrid dreams at night. I
f only it was as simple as it was before. If only nothing changed. If only Inevitable is best accepted with serenity. There are times when you absolutely see no solution. When you've thought and thought and prayed and prayed; when you've sat still in meditation listening for an answer and still no answer comes. There are times when it’s okay to just surrender. I SURRENDER. The day finally came. Twist twist twist in my story. I have written 55 drafts for my current story. I'm still constantly organizing things in a certain way. Hope I'm not the OCD type of person? I'm asserting myself into my adulthood.
Seriously,I haven't been exercising since so long. Last time, I would jog 3 times a week without fail but now I only exercise on weekends. This is funny because it's really a time for people
to relax and breath.
Well today is about 6 months since the last entry. Sorry, I was temporarily disconnected. Let's be frank, my bad habits just caught up with me! Yup yup! I just caught the joyous mood of the festival. Not much else to report and I'm jumping off the edge and learning to fly to resolve another issue.
Oh-woahh, wondering what's on my mind. Don't wonder because the wonder of it all, the wonder that I made. I am here to stay so don't rot and stay fresh! An internet search will throw up hundreds of leads eehehhh. I can be overwhelmed by sweets at festive seasons. Something is different and I'll try to explain it. Well, I got an appointment from the dentist. 2 weeks later, I went to the clinic and she taught me few teeth caring tips such as how to brush teeth and how to use gentle, circular motions to massage and clean the teeth and gums. Then, she cleaned and dried the tooth to be treated and then paint a layer of liquid white plastic material on the pits. It's dental sealant. Lastly, I had a bite adjustment. Everyday, I have to gaggle my mouth with salt water in order to kill the germs.
Notice: This is not for comfort, but also to preserve the health of my teeth...but it's not refreshing at all. What to do? I push and squeezed the gum until a whitish yellow pus came out. It's so yucky and definitely an infection. And of course nobody wants to eat it right?
Tooth crowding, receding gums, ...I just counted and there are more than 20 posts in search for tooth problems. Sensitivity to the temperature on the tooth when I drink or gaggle my mouth made me feel so irritated. Whenever I bite something or just close my mouth, it really hurts. This pain has come over the past few weeks and keep disturbing me like forever...nono I always have teeth pain since Form 4. I think but that's another type of pain so I decided to see the fix the problem but ended up even worse. Who should I blame? Wisdom teeth. Will growing wisdom teeth make me wiser? I don't like this feeling. Sigh, and again I'm too lazy to call up the dentist to tell her this situation. Brushing and gaggling my teeth is a painful task but this doesn't stop me from eating. I really should call and just go back and see her with no doubt.
Then, an appointment was made and had the surgery done. It was a mercy I got out alive. After I went to the treatment for the trea, I felt very much better. Well, I have to deal with root canal later.
Have a good time but get it out ALIVE!
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Thanks for reading all of em'! That's all for now!
I can't believe I can actually do so many things and I have discovered more about myself such as in a traditional way of writing diary. I really love writing and felt that I should make some contribution to this world at least, share life experience to the others to inspire and be inspired.
I learnt to smile and laugh as much as I can. Don't be scared if you heard my maniac laughter sound. I won't bite you. People who's facing problems, I just want to tell you that you are not alone. I sense how you feel. You never know what you can do until you try to do it. God won't give you more than you can handle. Although there may have been times you thought the world was caving in on you, you got through it. You are much stronger than you think and with God's power, you are stronger than you can imagine. So charge ahead, you can handle it.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. - Philippians 4:13
I wish to make a difference and I will do it. It is better to do a few things well than a bunch of things shoddily. If you are feeling overwhelmed, don't take on anything more. It's okay, and you might be giving someone else a chance to get involved. You don't have to be all things to all people; a few things to a few people will be just fine. It is the small things that make a big difference. Last but not least, I sincerely thank my family members and friends for their help, encouragement and blessings. Thank you to all of you!
note: haven't seen the dentist yet.
That's not all! I will have a lot more to say so stay tuned.
Embrace life!
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Love,
Angeline
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